I have lost 59 pounds! Down to the 160s!

So exciting to be achieving my goals. I am exercising and actually enjoying it and looking forward to it. I am getting used to eating smaller portions and am craving junk less frequently. I feel proud of myself.

So, I am down to 167 from 226! I only have 26 more pounds and I will have hit the “healthy weight range” which for me is 106-141. Anyway, next stop 150’s! I would say the only thing sucky about losing a lot of weight is not having any clothes that fit and not wanting to invest because the scale is still moving! My clothes are starting to look REAL silly on me so I will be hitting up the thrift shop this weekend!

Rockin’ the weight loss still!

I am down to 180.2 from 226! I’m getting quite close to that 50 pound loss mark (and to the 160’s!!). For my height the BMI chart dictates that at 171 pounds I will no longer be OBESE (hate that word) but will simply be OVERWEIGHT. To be in a healthy weight range I should be 106-143. That still seems a million years away and I have crazy doubt that I can do it as I never have before but I can say I am starting to get really excited about the idea of the 160’s. Small goals are more realistic. I cannot even imagine what in the world I will look like at a healthy weight as I NEVER have been since I was umm probably like 5 years old.

It is really pretty awesome to see how your body changes as you lose weight. I start seeing an indent in a place where I never had one and then I see a bone, like oh wow, yeah, there are bones under all my extra padding. Then one day I’ll have a scratch or something and realize, wow, my arm is so much smaller. Things are changing. How I feel about myself is changing. How I feel in my body is changing. How others seem to view me is changing.

I have lost a ton of inches from my neck (also my face looks different), my arms, thighs, waist, everywhere! I have now been able to fit every single thing I own, even from a decade ago when I was at my thinnest at 175. I am really excited to go shopping for some new smaller clothes to motivate me to the next size range.

Medifast has worked so amazingly for me so far. I am so grateful I gave it a shot. I hope everyone else is finding their key to health, whatever it may be for you.

Loving the 100’s :)

Down to 193 🙂 so getting close to those 180’s.

Christmas 2013 my fiance got me a pair of size 12 jeans as he thought it would be motivating (I was currently in size 16 but told him size 14). I haven’t been able to fit those jeans for the past year and half and they’ve just been sitting in a drawer reminding me of my diet failures. But, finally, this Sunday we were going to get our family pictures done, a yearly tradition at our twins birthday… I had bought a cute dress to wear then we decided to change the theme to do a jeans picture with color coordinated tops… sooo.. decided to try the size 12’s on again and BAM!! they fit well 🙂 I even felt good in them and quite cute 🙂 I even like how the pictures turned out. I usually grimmace when looking at the pictures and although my double chin did bother me a bit I have to say it was the happiest I have been with a picture in years.

I am proud and still going strong. Medifast is my miracle. I pray that I learn healthy ways of eating that can sustain me for my life as I, one day, get close to my goal weight. I will definitely be working with a dietician. Life is good. I am strong. I am beautiful… and I believe it.

We are all our own heroes!


Thank you medifast! Found my way back to the 100’s!!!


It’s been almost 5 years since I saw a one in the beginning on the scale!

Welcome back to the 100’s!! :)))))) I’ve lost over 10 inches from my body and 26.6 pounds, 21 of them in the past month! My size 12 jeans buttoned up! Tight as H. But they buttoned!!!

Now on to the next goal– 185 :)) Only 14 pounds away!!

Medifast is my freaking hero.

Feeling grateful and blessed and filled with belief in myself!

Anticipation * :)

Well, today the scale is at 200.2! I am SO close. I am seriously so excited to see that number 1 in the front! 🙂 I’m just going to keep doing what I’m doing and I know it will come!

Medifast is working WONDERFUL for me! Today my food came for month 2 and I am so super hype. I love the food. I love how I’m feeling!

Come on 190’s!!! (Then 180s 170s 160s 150s 140s130s 120s …— for the first time in my life I really believe I can do it!!!)

25 pounds lost!

HOLY COW! I AM ONLY .7 POUNDS FROM BEING UNDER 200!!!! WOOOOHOOOOO! This morning I was 200.6 (down from 226). I totally cannot believe that very very soon the scale will be in the 1’s!!! I haven’t been there since my pre pregnancy times almost 5 years ago!!

Still wierd though because I can BARELY tell that I have lost weight. My clothes are only slightly looser, nothing serious. I do seem to see teeny teeny tiny bits of differences all over, like my face, fingers, knees, lol, so maybe not so noticeable since it is coming a bit off of everywhere. One month will be on Wednesday and I plan to re-do all my measurements so that will hopefully show me where the pounds have come off at.

Also, quite worried about excess skin just sagging on my tummy. I can see already that it is getting a tad bit smaller but saggy. I had twins which really stretched my tummy out on top of being obese most of my life. Anyone have any tips on trying to avoid saggy tummy while losing weight? creams? exercises? water? I think its going to be pretty bad so any tips seriously appreciated!!

Have a fabulous day!

10 pounds in ten days with medifast!

Wow, so my first ten days with medifast were pretty awesome. I’ve dropped ten pounds which is pretty awesome. I’m sure some is water weight but hey thats still less I have to carry around! I am starting to feel more energetic and a bit less hungry. I’m glad medifast is working quickly for me in the beginning (hopefully always lol) because it is so hard to stay motivated when you are obese as ten pounds isnt really even noticeable, I can barely tell at all. I really need like a 20 pound loss to see/feel a difference and usually give up before getting there as it takes so long… so, thanks medifast!!! *crossing fingers I keep with it*

My coach/dietician has said that I can eat more vegetables than what is recommended by medifast, that it will not kick me out of the fat burning stage. Like adding a salad with my medifast lunch in addition to my lean and green for dinner. Has anyone done this or how do you feel about it?

Her big reason for this was that I get a bit shaky around lunch time but don’t want to eat my lean and green then, Id prefer to eat with my family for dinner. Also, I love my big lean and green meal and dont want to take from that. I love a BIG meal… hopefully ill adjust my preference for that some day as tummy shrinks… i just LOVE (but oddly also hate) that full filled up feeling. So anyway she said I can eat more veggies… ???

So, original high weight– 226; medifast starting weight– 220.6; NOW– 209.4!!


88 days smoke free!!!

Its been quite the while since I posted. It’s been a life changing few months!

Best news of all is that I finally quit smoking– 88 days now!! 🙂

Also, became single (found out fiance was cheating) ! this is a GOOD thing because I found out before we got married (and spent thousands on a wedding)! Luckily, I’m the bigger person and allowing him to rent the basement for some time so that the kids (we have 3 year old twins) can adjust to the changes and we can both save up money. I actually feel really good about being single, after 8 years of trying to make it work with this man I know I tried everything possible. It is not me. I accept that, … Finally.

And the final good news— I have started Medifast!!! Actually the Take Shape For Life program but I’m actually not sure if the whole coach thing is really all that great as I am on day 2 and haven’t heard a peep from the coach. I’m not really the reach out to strangers type so the whole coach thing might be pointless. But the coach is also my dietician and I’m meeting with her every other week SO I do like the accountability and support with that.

I do not plan to get on the scale until my next appointment– on the 24th. I do not do well with the normal scale fluctuations that occur and think i should just stay away!!

I really actually like the foods so far. I was really worried after reading reviews but, to me, it tastes fine. So far I’ve had the peanut butter chocolate chip chewy bar, honey mustard pretzels, fruit and nut bar, and the blueberry muffin. All are yummy!

I am pretty excited about all the changes that are taking place and the positive direction my life is headed! 🙂

Take the good with the bad!

Well, I’ve finally quit smoking!! 7 days now 🙂 !!! I haven’t been pushing myself too hard with eating healthy– I just wanted snacks way too badly– and I went from 206 to 210 (i guess that could happen quickly going from a restricted calorie diet of usually 1200 calories to eating 2200 (one day even 2600! ) calories a day in mostly snacks). Ugh. But, hey, it’s not the end of the world! I’m smoke free!! I have more energy and have even started a little exercising!! I haven’t wanted to exercise in a LONG time, lol, so it was pretty awesome to wake up feeling like I wanted to go for a walk! I walked so hard and fast that my legs HURT for days– I didn’t realize I was so out of shape!! I used to walk like that all the time when I lived in NYC. I just didn’t realize I was so darn out of shape.

Feels like FOREVER that I’ve been anticipating getting under 200. I’ve been stuck in this 200-210 range for weeks n weeks now! This is the week that I get on track to break it! Cross your fingers for me! 🙂 Thanks!

So depressing…

So it’s the start of a wonderful spring break. I really thought I would be at 200 or a pound under by the time spring break hit BUT…  My newfound days of failure are taking over. The plan today was to stick to some planned meals, something I’ve tried a thousand (plus) times. I ended up snacking and eating more than my portion for dinner.

Calories today:

breakfast- shredded wheat with 1/2 cup milk and banana- 310

snack- 1/2 slice school pizza- 240 (it wasn’t even good it was just there)

lunch- turkey and cheese with tomato on wheat flat bread, strawberries, cheese its (wanted to save for a snack later)- 350

Snack- shredded wheat- 1/2 cup 100 (was not even hungry, I was just stressed as I had alot of work to get done)

snack- jelly beans, 100; cracker jacks, 50 (the snack attack from my old days was creeping in)

dinner- shrimp fried rice 1 1/2 cups, 1/2 spring roll, 10 french fries with ketchup-, broccoli – 650

day total= 1800

So insane. It’s like I just check out and eat the food because it’s there and then I need more. I don’t think before I eat. I hope I can conquer this eating problem.

At least I still managed to stay under 2000. Not a success but not the worst failure ever.


Tomorrow it’s back to slim-fast to get my grasp back. I would probably do low carb instead and try again for the lifestyle change but I have a whole case of slimfast that I might as well use. It helps me control my eating/portions and get used to the no snacking. Plus I get to enjoy fruit, a dinner I enjoy, and I know I can stick to it. Tomorrow. The rest of today it’s hot tea/water/crystal light.

On a bonus I’m at 206 and that’s still alot better than my starting 226. I just have to keep up trying and it will work out.. I know I can do this. Just a few more pounds to break 200- no time to give up!!!


Breakfast- Banana Smoothie

Lunch- Chocolate peanut butter smoothie

Dinner- going to look and plan now

Dessert- Grapes, hot tea

It’s only 7 pounds to under 200!! I can do this!!!

Yay for tomorrow being a great day!